Maybe I have figured out God's reason as to why I lost two babies. First of all, after completing my paralegal degree I am planning to go on and get my Bachelors in Consumer and Family Studies with an emphasis on Family Planning. Maybe God wanted me to have an abundance of life experience before going into this field. If I had a super smooth beginning and birth would I be able to relate to women I possibly might be working with in the future?
My sister in law announced she was pregnant on Mother's Day this year. Sadly at 8 weeks she discovered through u/s that it was not in the uterus and had to go in for a DNC. She opened up about her experience and I think I was able to comfort her in a way that no one else could because I understood from experience the grief and guilt you feel with a loss of a baby. I had just had my 2nd m/c about 3 weeks before her loss. My heart freshly knew the pain that she was going through.
Maybe God wanted me to know the grief and the joy of babies. My two first babies were lessons and the best part is that they are in heaven right now watching me try to become the best mother I can be.
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