Ok, it feels real now!

Yesterday we went in for our second pre-natal appointment. I am so thankful Troy only works 4 days so that I can schedule doctors appointments on his day off. The appointment was super quick. Pee in a cup, get weighed, get my blood pressure checked, wait for the doctor, and become so thankful the nurse didn't tell me to undress!!

We chatted for a few minutes, asked if I had any questions (which of course after walking out of the office I remember 2 questions about meds!), and then he said lets make this appointment worth it and see if we can find a heart beat.

I layed back on the table and he got the doppler out. The anticipation was rising as I have been reading that some women are not able to hear the heart beat at 10 weeks. The Dr. immediately found the heart beat and we got to listen to it for a minute. It was breath taking. Dr. said it sounded good and that we have a soccer player on our hands.

It was the best anniversary present I could have ever asked for ~ Happy 2 year anniversary Bubba!! After the appointment we went to Triangle Square and hit up their happy hour. We got 3 appetizers and a 1/2 priced BBQ Chicken Pizza for only $23!! It was delicious and a perfect celebration for our anniversary and hearing our baby today.

Since I am truly a home body and an old soul we decided to go to Target and get some ice cream and a new movie so we could go home and cuddle in the comfort of our PJs. No big celebration... it was just right... it was so us!

Now I can rub my belly and really feel reassured that I am talking to our baby. Love at first sound!

My Mommy Pregnancy Journal

Troy had given me a Mommy Pregnancy Journal for my birthday this year when I found out I was pregnant for the first time. I didn't write in it at the time just because I was only 6 weeks and I wanted to be a little more sure of things before I started memorializing anything. Three days later I was bleeding and it was all over.

Now I am pregnant again and I am 9w5d. I keep looking at the Mommy Journal on my night stand hoping to have the courage to write to my little one but haven't found the strength just yet. In 3 weeks my first trimester will be over and I haven't written a single word in it yet. I have things I want to say but am too afraid that this pregnancy will end like the other 2 and it will be all for not.

When will this really feel real to me? The nausea is real and taking the Progetrium and pre-natals which make me ill is real but the actual feeling of having a baby growing inside me still feels like a dream.

My mom has been giving the baby a gift every week since I was 5 weeks. Baby has gotten bibs, wash clothes, baby bible books, sippy cups, teething ring and other odds and ends that are gender neutral. She is very excited!

Sick and Tired of Being Sick and Tired

Ever feel like you haven't had a full good day in a long time? Well that is what I have been feeling lately. Who knew that the first trimester would suck so badly. The good thing is that everything is "normal" and the sickness that I am feeling is nothing out of the ordinary. The sucky part is that it is normal and feeling like this comes with the package.

I have an aversion to pills now. Taking the extra progesterone 2x daily, Metformin and my pre-natal vitamin the moment that the pills hit my mouth I gag. Great. After the first trimester I will get to eliminate the Metformin and (hopefully) eliminate the extra progesterone.

Over the weekend I broke down. I was hungry but didn't want to eat. Nothing sounded good and the fear of the pain I would be in after I ate was greater than my desire to eat. I can't wait until this is all over and I can eat a hunkin' steak without distress.

Also, a bonus for early pregnancy is constipation. I know, not the loveliest topic, but honestly I can't wait to take one big huge dump. To think that I complained of my daily diarrhea episodes when I first started Metformin to now where I rejoice at the sign of a bowel movement.

Water retention is setting in and my rings are getting a bit too tight for comfort. Need to find a band to replace it for the next 7 months.

Next pre-natal appointment is on our 2 year wedding anniversary. The hubs better take me out for a nice dinner (pending I don't feel like vomiting the entire time).

He has been great. He has been doing laundry and doing the heavy lifting. He is willing to run out and get what ever I need when I finally decide its time to eat without complaining. Where would I be without him? How do these girls on 16 and Pregnant do this on their own?

I am looking forward to the light at the end of the tunnel. Right now I just feel fat and frumpy and can't wait until the morning sickness subsides and the bump is revealed. I need justification for the fatness.