Troy had given me a Mommy Pregnancy Journal for my birthday this year when I found out I was pregnant for the first time. I didn't write in it at the time just because I was only 6 weeks and I wanted to be a little more sure of things before I started memorializing anything. Three days later I was bleeding and it was all over.
Now I am pregnant again and I am 9w5d. I keep looking at the Mommy Journal on my night stand hoping to have the courage to write to my little one but haven't found the strength just yet. In 3 weeks my first trimester will be over and I haven't written a single word in it yet. I have things I want to say but am too afraid that this pregnancy will end like the other 2 and it will be all for not.
When will this really feel real to me? The nausea is real and taking the Progetrium and pre-natals which make me ill is real but the actual feeling of having a baby growing inside me still feels like a dream.
My mom has been giving the baby a gift every week since I was 5 weeks. Baby has gotten bibs, wash clothes, baby bible books, sippy cups, teething ring and other odds and ends that are gender neutral. She is very excited!
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